It is Monday morning and I am having trouble focusing on the necessary work tasks on my to-do list. I spent the past weekend with 15 amazing women in a transitions yoga retreat. It was wonderful and energizing but exhausting at the same time. We were an eclectic group. Young...old...starting education programs...retired from education programs...married...single...in and out of relationships...classy...earthy...Christian...Buddhist...spiritual seekers...but all with a sincere intention to know ourselves more fully.
It is always interesting and often difficult to look within and come face to face with my true self...honest answers...clarified reflections...hard-edged reality. Do not misunderstand...the process of self reflection holds tremendous value for me. But without the follow-up of focused actions to support the new clarity, the value is diminished and my life remains as it is.
So...I am in the middle of creative change. A familiar place in recent years. I am gathering the bits and pieces of self-awareness, the threads of ah-ha moments and the beads and baubles of authenticity. I am weaving and stitching...crafting and creating...working frantically but with precision. I am designing the ever evolving tapestry of my life. Making an adjustment here...cutting something away there...adding...purging...looking closely...standing back for the full view.
It is beautiful! This tapestry of my life. It is perfectly flawed. It is brightly colored with occasional splotches of depression and disappointment. It has gaping holes where I have ripped out the stitches and they have yet to be repaired or replaced. But it also has marvelous texture from the fabrics and yarns. There are sparkling beads of love...caring...family...and friends. And the silky thread of wisdom is woven throughout...peaking out of the yarn and fabric intermittently. This wisdom thread is invisible at times, but it is always present, holding the components of my tapestry together.
So...as I work to apply the revelations of the weekend I am adding to and modifying my tapestry. I am cutting hindering fabric away...adding stitches of truth...embellishing with enlightenment....and stitching it together with wisdom.
As I stand back I realize...it truly is beautiful!!
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